Update In the Adoption World

Well, I realize I haven't mentioned adoption in quite some time. There really hasn't been anything worth mentioning. All of our clearances and whatnot are updated and we had our home visit for the home study update as well.

We have less traffic (compared to last year at this time) to our website. Less traffic as in no traffic, so that is somewhat disheartening. We have had a few (4) contacts this year. So far those contacts haven't amounted to "the one," but at least I"m getting plenty of practice.

We recently decided to do some additional advertising. Whether that helps or not, I guess we will find out, but at least it makes it feel that we are doing "something."

Here's to more waiting!!

It's A Perfect Day

Miss K just said to me "It's a perfect day for flying a kite!"

Indeed it is. It's beautiful out, but it's WINDY!

I Live

for this! 

These moments are rare, but today my poor girl was exhausted and she wanted her Momma. And her Momma wanted and needed her. I'm pretty sure she is the reason I wake up every morning.

Busy Little Bee

 Miss K has been asking me for months to make her a Hello Kitty hair bow. I took a break from the hair bow making, but today I decided I would make a beautiful bow for her. Then, I thought "Well, I should probably go ahead and make a few more since I have everything out." I forgot how much I actually enjoy making them! 

Hello Kitty bow, and my favorite!

Easter hair bow

St. Patty's bow

Jelly Beans!

Child

"Child"

Author Unknown

 

A tiny life is growing
Inside a cozy place
His arms and legs are flailing
A smile is on his face.
His mother feels a tiny kick
Upon her rounded tummy
And waits impatiently for the day
When she becomes a Mummy.
The baby’s smile is fading
But his eyes are open wide
He knows that he’ll be leaving soon
But will never see outside.
There aren’t so many kicks now
In fact there’s none at all
Gran says that baby’s sleeping
And keeps knitting up his shawl.
His life is draining quickly
But no-one knows a thing
A tiny smile fleets his face
When he hears his Mother sing.
He knows that he’ll remember her
And the things he heard her say
Peacefully and happily
The baby drifts away.
Mummy knows that something’s wrong
And is at the clinic before too long
A scan is done and Doctor says
“I’m sorry, baby’s gone”.
The grief is overwhelming
The sadness takes its toll
Friends and family gather round
As he’s buried in his shawl.
As time goes by and lapses on
His Mother sheds a tear
And hears these words inside her head
“Mum I’m always here,
I’ll never ever leave you
Although you may not know
I’ll be beside you every day
Through laughter, joy and woe.
You’ll never need to miss me
For I am in your heart
And though we’re in two different worlds
We’ll never be apart”.

LMHL

What does that stand for!? Last Minute Hospital List... If you think about it just a little you might be able to figure it out but I'll go ahead and explain. :)  This is a last minute situation, an expecting mother did not make an adoption plan, but while in labor or soon after delivery decided she would like to place her baby for adoption. These cases are not all that common with our agency. Being on the list would mean that if there was a situation within a 4 hour radius of us, we would be called and would have to make a decision within 30 minutes on whether or not to proceed. A waiting family can potentially have a baby within 4 hours! How exciting is that!

Our agency offers clients that have been "waiting" for a year to go on this "list." Nick and I have been waiting a little over a year and we have been offered to go on the LMHL. So what does this mean for us? Absolutely nothing! We have opted not to go on the list. This whole year we always said that we wouldn't go on the list. We never expected to have the opportunity to go on the list (we thought we would adopt before our year mark). The waiting downright stinks, it's such an emotional roller coaster, and in all honesty I'm at one of my lowest points with "dealing" with waiting. As much as having a baby in an instant appeals to us, we couldn't do it. Nick and I are not impulse people. We like to think things thoroughly, over analyze, and discuss beyond measure. I've always thought those were wonderful traits, but now I'm not so sure.

I've said this the last 2 years, but I guess maybe the 3rd time's a charm: This year is going to be "our" year!

Do I Have To?

Holidays (and especially Christmas) are rough times. It's always in the back of my mind that I *should* have two little ones to celebrate with. Last year was somewhat tolerable because we had complete file approval and we could proceed with adoption! We had high hopes that we would adopt soon and the thought of it taking this long never entered our minds.. This year, though, marks the 2nd Christmas without our little JB and a whole year of "waiting." It's hard to get in the Christmas spirit, but I know I have to because I do have one sweet little face that deserves the best! This week we decorated and K did a wonderful job "helping." We have two trees and I let her decorate one of them all by herself. She thought she was such a big girl! All the ornaments are in one little spot... I'm surprised the tree hasn't fallen over yet! The other she helped with, but I admit, I did rearrange a few of the decorations. :)